I wish I was one of those people who can sleep on command. The first train has gone by the apartment and I’m still awake. I haven’t managed to adjust time zones. I could try forcing myself to stay awake all through the night and day, but since I change time zones again in just over a week, I don’t think I’ll be able to drum up enough will power.
I also can’t work out why I think I should be sleeping at 4:30am. Why does it matter to me? I’m not doing anything tomorrow that’s tied to a particular time. I was going to start the day by answering some TPF email, but I can just as easily do that now. But I still feel that being awake all night and sleeping all day is a waste of the day. Maybe it’s some silly thing I was taught as a child to try to make me get out of bed in the mornings. I need to lose this feeling though. Feeling bad about being awake makes me go to bed where I end up gazing at the ceiling for hours, driving myself mad. And that is a complete and utter waste of time.